yikes it's been a hot minute what's up (school life update)

-- date : september 14th, 2018, 11:49 PM
-- song of the day :seashore by the regrettes // you're talking to me like a child 
-- currently looking forward to : my first key club meeting this coming tuesday i suppose ?? i might be joininggg :-)

heyy friends

why am i still awake im so tired 😞

so i haven't really posted since before school started
my first day was like over a week ago

but like in general i think i'm doing well so far.
i mean IB classes are exactly as demanding and tough as i thought they'd be
but i'm trying to make a schedule for myself. set daily goals. i wanna really get back into the swing of things. keep productive.

i just hope i can keep it up, keep reminding myself of all my new habits and to break old ones
im pushing myself harder than ever this year but
i still can't afford to burn out
i'll finish strong (academically AND mentally) this year if it's the last thing i do

i feel surprisingly less stressed, taking more time to care for myself.
i have my friends, my family, tons of people i can rant to and dump all my thoughts to. people i trust to not judge me or not take me seriously.
it feels nice.

either this is the calm before a huge storm or i've finally found the secret to living or something

i'll just... enjoy it as it happens right now.

sorry this was so short i just felt the need to update on what's been happening now that school started.
plus i'm incredibly tired.
 idk when my next post will be but i hope soon.

it's almost midnight and my eyes are starting to get heavy so uh bye
x ainsley

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